I know everyone hates those girls who say "new year, new me" after they get their hair dyed or a different nail colour at the end of every year. But this time, Id like to think a new year, new me.. means I can better myself and my life and gain self control and happiness again. If I remember what thats even like.. Ive been unhappy since I was around 14. I think thats about the same time I started high school. My mom always thought I was doing something wrong, I was always grounded, my step dad was a dick and hates me, and I wasn't trusted. I thought no one liked me and still think that. For several years I've been suffering daily with anxiety, mainly social anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have a fear of being abandoned by my partner. I fear he can't take it anymore and leaves me. This is unhealthy. Im unhealthy.
- Workout Daily - Everyday, I will workout, I will lose the weight I want to lose by summer. This WILL make me happy. After 21 days of doing something, it becomes a habit so I will make working out a habit.
- Meditation - Every morning & every night, I will practice meditation. I separated a small corner in my room that can be my "peaceful/healing corner. Meditation helps with anxiety and depression. A moment to just breathe.
- Yoga - Everyday, I want to start yoga. Which also helps with anxiety and depression. A good workout while focusing on breathing and relaxation. This will be done in my peaceful corner in my office.
- Healing Crystals - I started collecting healing crystals and salt lamps. This is a very new and different hobby/practice that I've never tried. I figured its something that may make me happy, something to look at, and something to meditate with.
- Write A Book - Ever since I was little, I've wanted to write a book. I used to want to be an author. So this year, I plan to self publish a book.
- Improve my Business - I want to make it better. The best it can be and put all my work into making it perfect.
- Journal - I already use a planner but I want to start journaling everyday, small things like how my day was, how I'm feeling, how I felt, what I did ect. Something to look back on and can see how I'm improving. A second place to vent.
- Pay off all debt - I want to fix this stress. I want to be careful with money and pay off all my debt. Im tired of having this worry and its time to grow up and solve it.